Some insight into my writing, and the reason I decided to write 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness

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I wasn’t planning on having my first published book be in the genre of self-help/personal transformation. I was writing a fiction novel, and was approximately 12k words deep when my concentration started to drift, and fail me. I started to become agitated by this, and the fact that I wanted so badly to write – to do what I always dreamed of; to write, and this time, actually publish all that builds inside my mind, and streams out from my finger tips.

All these folders full of files, all these words – surely, they must be worth something. If nothing more, at least, a help to others in seeing they aren’t alone in their thoughts and feelings, and there is a lighter side.

You’ll read about how I never wanted to publish my work years ago, including why, in the back matter of my book, on the About the Author page (or on the next page of this site). In a nutshell, I couldn’t find my voice. I found the words alright, but the incorrect ones, in the incorrect tone. It just wasn’t my time back then. My personal opinion is that you must know, in all ways, what you are writing about, before writing it, especially when it comes to non-fiction. You must know why, and what the intentions of the writing are.

While writing that fiction novel, that will never become, at least, not that I can see at this present time – My Higher Consciousness kept coming into play. Certain happenings would occur bringing me back down to reality, in a way, I believe, to say Hey! You know you’re not supposed to be writing this. This isn’t you. This isn’t your genre, or what’s in your heart! And it’s not. I’ll leave fiction to my sister, who I hope does pursue writing one day.

Fiction never was my thing. I write what I know, and it’s what I’m best at writing. Life, living it, surviving, living through the battle, and understanding how to surpass it.

My writing is full of raw emotion, and honesty. This is what others who I’ve let read my writing have, and continue to tell me. Raw emotion and honesty is what I’m all about. Truth is something I’ve always searched for in every aspect of my life. And emotion is what I’m built on.

I once dated someone who studied Psychology, and asked me to take the Rorschach test. I curiously did, and my result was that I act on emotion. It was interesting to me, and indeed true. I did, and maybe even still do act on emotion, at times. The Rorschach test is basically a personality test. Much like any other personality test out there, the answer, I believe, can change from day to day, just by what your mood is that day (or even, in that moment). Anytime I’ve taken a personality test, I’ve always felt that my answers could go one way or another, sometimes even drastically, and I always have to choose the one I believe best suits me in the moment.

If you search for the Rorschach test online and take it, don’t be surprised if you stumble upon a site that only reveals answers that you are insane, and need help. There is one out there. I won’t name the site because I just don’t feel that’s right to do, but I had taken the test, and it concluded that I need help, and am pretty messed up in my thought process. Well, that wasn’t sitting well with me, so I decided to take the test again choosing answers that a rather normal person (at least, in my mind) would. The result came back that I was even more insane, and there is pretty much no hope for me. Be careful of some of these sites! Don’t put even an ounce of faith into these answers, unless the test is done by a true physician.

Now, of course after taking that test twice, I decided to search further for a more honest one. After taking the more honestly scored test, it turns out, I’m alright. I’m not insane and my thought process is pretty normal, compared to others, perhaps, even boring.

Let’s take a look at the Meyers and Briggs Personality Test (MBTI). This one is more in depth and can take a bit longer, depending on which site you use. There is a site where you can pay for results, or there are quite a handful of sites that offer free tests. This was a popular test among my friend’s years ago, and when requested, I’d take the test again, failing to remember exactly what my results were, previously.  Each time I’d take it, it revealed I was an INFJ. I very rarely would receive a different answer being ISTP, which I never believed suited me. Perhaps at the times I’d received the ISTP answer, I was thinking and acting more logically, rather than on feeling.

An interesting thing I stumbled upon while taking another look at my personality type recently, is that INFJ’s tend to be a rare personality type. It’s funny to have stumbled upon that, as I’ve always thought of myself as different, even as a little girl. I was always afraid to let anyone, even my best friends, too far into my mind. I always felt as though I was too emotional, too sensitive, with too many weird thoughts that others must not have, or understand. I always felt as though I didn’t belong here on Earth. I felt as though I belong somewhere else, some other dimension, or universe.

There were times in my life when this was very hard for me. I’d take this thought and feeling of being different, and run with it in all different directions. I’d become offended and upset thinking others believed I was boring with no personality, failing to realize it’s only because of what I’d portray. I would shut down, and shut up, becoming timid and scared; stifled by intimidation. I was afraid to let my true self out. Afraid of what others would think of me, my mind, and even my emotions.

Of course, now that I’m older, I realize I’m not so different than the average individual, and my thoughts really aren’t all that strange, including how I process them.

The reason why I wrote 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness is because I want to help others. Within the blood that flows through my veins, I feel a true need to help others in some way.

Once starting on 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness, it began as strictly a book about dreams, helping the dreamer to understand and interpret them. I just couldn’t stop there however, as there’s so much more to dreams than just sleep and what you’re seeing, and with that, there was so much more I wanted to say. It’s about guidance, and truly understanding the message, and more importantly, where that message is coming from. It’s about realizing that you hold information inside yourself, that you have access to, if only you open yourself up to it. It’s about seeing life for what it really is, and understanding yourself, your behaviors, your mind, and your soul.

I feel we could all use a bit more understanding, and awareness from time to time, and it’s exactly what 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness is about.

Now that I’ve finished writing and publishing this book, I’m just about ready to start writing my next book, which will also be non-fiction.

If you have already purchased this book, thank you so much!

If you bought 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness through Amazon, I would greatly appreciate your honest feedback in the form of a rating and review.

Also, comments here on the blog are always open for all readers to share their thoughts. (Unless, of course, I’ve done something wrong within the setup.)

Almost there!

All Things Book Related

For a new author, writing a book and self-publishing it from start to finish can be a very long and difficult process. I have finally completed the cover to satisfaction after the hundredth time. Okay, maybe I’m exaggerating, but probably not by much. I should have taken a screen shot of my desktop and all the .png’s, .jpg’s and .pdf’s I saved, then deleted after realizing I’d have to use a cover creator from KDP (Amazon) anyway. Even after using the creator, I noticed the image was stretched out, and worked on that for another few hours yesterday.

Aside from the cover, the formatting was the most difficult, especially when having to format for both Kindle and paperback, individually. It seems once you upload it after reviewing it again, and again, making all necessary changes, it still doesn’t seem to upload in the chosen format. Well, this seems to only be so for Kindle E-Book, not paperback.

Without getting into all the technicalities and boring you, I’ll just say I’m not crazy about using Kindle Create for the document upload, and would much rather use my own .doc or .docx – which for paperback, works like a charm. However, Kindle Create is the way I’ve gone, because using the Word document is actually more difficult for Kindle E-book version.

There are still one or two quirks I’d like to work out but, both paperback and Kindle versions are almost ready. At this point, I’m planning on both versions being available for purchase by mid to late next week. (I’ll provide a link when available.) The quirks I’d like to work out are in Kindle version. Although it’s extremely imperative that both versions are absolutely perfect to how I want them to look, I might have to accept that I don’t have absolute control over everything when it comes to the complete layout and format, with Kindle.

Next, I will be working on setting up the Audio Book version. 

All Things Related to This Blog and Site

The fact that I tend to work backwards, hasn’t helped matters at all. I researched, and researched the correct way to go about every step in the publishing process, making sure to set up a blog to help support the book. I also went about that process backwards it seems. So, anyone following this blog will receive a notice of an update of the privacy policy sometime after October 15, 2020, as I will be transferring the hosting of

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