Something interesting happened over the weekend

Lately I’ve been going back in my mind, mostly to childhood memories. It’s necessary for the next project I’m working on. I’ve had my grandfather (on my father’s side), my poppy, on my mind a lot. He was someone I was close to as a child, and he passed away when I was 9 years old. Many moons ago, now. In my eyes, he was a great man. He served in the military, was a part of the Korean War, and had a heart of the purest gold you could find on this luscious green Earth.

My father and his sister, my aunt, might not think of him or my grandmother, in the same light as I had. What I experienced was the smell of Italian red sauce being cooked as you walked through the door. The smell of pine enhancing as you neared the Christmas tree surrounded by presents. Laughter after being poked on my shoulder, opposite side of where my poppy sat, knowing it was him but letting him think otherwise. A slight break of my heart as I realized my name wasn’t on any of the tags attached to presents bearing names of all the grandchildren. Awkward anxiety of having to go out and into the hallway to meet Santa for my present, and more heartbreak when he wouldn’t show. Excitement and absent-mindedness of Santa failing to come around, after coming back through their door to a perfect gift Santa just so happened to leave, before rushing out in a hurry.

“You see Vera, he has a lot of presents to drop off, and didn’t have time to say hello, but he left you this pretty pink and white bicycle.”

My grandfather died of a heart attack while in his car, sitting in a parking lot with his wallet out and opened to photographs of his grandchildren. Not too long after he died I remember being outside, around the block from where I lived, and I watched as a man got into his car. I watched in disbelief, hope, heartbreak and a bit of fear as a man who looked exactly like my poppy, same hat and all, got into his car. I ran back up to my parents as fast as I could. “I just saw poppy! He got into a car by Levi’s. It was him. It looked just like him, and he even has the same hat as poppy. He smiled at me.” Tears started streaming out my eyes before my mom explained that our minds can sometimes play tricks on us like this, and it wasn’t really poppy.

Since having my grandfather on my mind, I decided to show my boyfriend the ashtray I have that was his from when he was stationed in India, during the Korean War. I used to use this ashtray for my butts and whatnot many years ago (so there is some residue left on it), before finally deciding to wrap it up nicely and put it away. From apartment to apartment, I’ve had it tucked away under kitchen sinks, and in closets for years.

After taking it out a few days ago, I became inquisitive of its existence; did he make it himself, was he creative/talented/artsy? If he made it himself, when? In his free time? What did he do while stationed in India?

The ashtray is not a style I’d usually go for other than bearing the color green, which is a favorite of mine. The pattern is cool but it’s also gold (which now has a deep orange showing through), which is something that normally turns me off. This particular ashtray is something I’ve always liked, however — the uniqueness of it, and of course, the fact it has history and was once my grandfathers. And even better, it’s possible, however not so probable, he made it.

My grandfather’s signature is on the bottom of it, which my aunt confirms IS indeed his signature. A copyright symbol is also carved right next to his name, and on the opposite side, reads USA 636. Wait, what? Say that again. 636! Like my book, 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness. Such an awesome coincidence in my mind! A coincidence I didn’t take notice of, honestly. My mother pointed it out once I sent her and my father the photo’s of the ashtray, questioning the signature, and all about it. These types of things sometimes go right over my head. Nevertheless, it’s pretty awesome to have stumbled upon, and it definitely gives me some kind of feel.

The ashtray dates back to, I would assume, sometime between 1950-1953.

Photo’s of the ashtray:

Some insight into my writing, and the reason I decided to write 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness

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I wasn’t planning on having my first published book be in the genre of self-help/personal transformation. I was writing a fiction novel, and was approximately 12k words deep when my concentration started to drift, and fail me. I started to become agitated by this, and the fact that I wanted so badly to write – to do what I always dreamed of; to write, and this time, actually publish all that builds inside my mind, and streams out from my finger tips.

All these folders full of files, all these words – surely, they must be worth something. If nothing more, at least, a help to others in seeing they aren’t alone in their thoughts and feelings, and there is a lighter side.

You’ll read about how I never wanted to publish my work years ago, including why, in the back matter of my book, on the About the Author page (or on the next page of this site). In a nutshell, I couldn’t find my voice. I found the words alright, but the incorrect ones, in the incorrect tone. It just wasn’t my time back then. My personal opinion is that you must know, in all ways, what you are writing about, before writing it, especially when it comes to non-fiction. You must know why, and what the intentions of the writing are.

While writing that fiction novel, that will never become, at least, not that I can see at this present time – My Higher Consciousness kept coming into play. Certain happenings would occur bringing me back down to reality, in a way, I believe, to say Hey! You know you’re not supposed to be writing this. This isn’t you. This isn’t your genre, or what’s in your heart! And it’s not. I’ll leave fiction to my sister, who I hope does pursue writing one day.

Fiction never was my thing. I write what I know, and it’s what I’m best at writing. Life, living it, surviving, living through the battle, and understanding how to surpass it.

My writing is full of raw emotion, and honesty. This is what others who I’ve let read my writing have, and continue to tell me. Raw emotion and honesty is what I’m all about. Truth is something I’ve always searched for in every aspect of my life. And emotion is what I’m built on.

I once dated someone who studied Psychology, and asked me to take the Rorschach test. I curiously did, and my result was that I act on emotion. It was interesting to me, and indeed true. I did, and maybe even still do act on emotion, at times. The Rorschach test is basically a personality test. Much like any other personality test out there, the answer, I believe, can change from day to day, just by what your mood is that day (or even, in that moment). Anytime I’ve taken a personality test, I’ve always felt that my answers could go one way or another, sometimes even drastically, and I always have to choose the one I believe best suits me in the moment.

If you search for the Rorschach test online and take it, don’t be surprised if you stumble upon a site that only reveals answers that you are insane, and need help. There is one out there. I won’t name the site because I just don’t feel that’s right to do, but I had taken the test, and it concluded that I need help, and am pretty messed up in my thought process. Well, that wasn’t sitting well with me, so I decided to take the test again choosing answers that a rather normal person (at least, in my mind) would. The result came back that I was even more insane, and there is pretty much no hope for me. Be careful of some of these sites! Don’t put even an ounce of faith into these answers, unless the test is done by a true physician.

Now, of course after taking that test twice, I decided to search further for a more honest one. After taking the more honestly scored test, it turns out, I’m alright. I’m not insane and my thought process is pretty normal, compared to others, perhaps, even boring.

Let’s take a look at the Meyers and Briggs Personality Test (MBTI). This one is more in depth and can take a bit longer, depending on which site you use. There is a site where you can pay for results, or there are quite a handful of sites that offer free tests. This was a popular test among my friend’s years ago, and when requested, I’d take the test again, failing to remember exactly what my results were, previously.  Each time I’d take it, it revealed I was an INFJ. I very rarely would receive a different answer being ISTP, which I never believed suited me. Perhaps at the times I’d received the ISTP answer, I was thinking and acting more logically, rather than on feeling.

An interesting thing I stumbled upon while taking another look at my personality type recently, is that INFJ’s tend to be a rare personality type. It’s funny to have stumbled upon that, as I’ve always thought of myself as different, even as a little girl. I was always afraid to let anyone, even my best friends, too far into my mind. I always felt as though I was too emotional, too sensitive, with too many weird thoughts that others must not have, or understand. I always felt as though I didn’t belong here on Earth. I felt as though I belong somewhere else, some other dimension, or universe.

There were times in my life when this was very hard for me. I’d take this thought and feeling of being different, and run with it in all different directions. I’d become offended and upset thinking others believed I was boring with no personality, failing to realize it’s only because of what I’d portray. I would shut down, and shut up, becoming timid and scared; stifled by intimidation. I was afraid to let my true self out. Afraid of what others would think of me, my mind, and even my emotions.

Of course, now that I’m older, I realize I’m not so different than the average individual, and my thoughts really aren’t all that strange, including how I process them.

The reason why I wrote 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness is because I want to help others. Within the blood that flows through my veins, I feel a true need to help others in some way.

Once starting on 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness, it began as strictly a book about dreams, helping the dreamer to understand and interpret them. I just couldn’t stop there however, as there’s so much more to dreams than just sleep and what you’re seeing, and with that, there was so much more I wanted to say. It’s about guidance, and truly understanding the message, and more importantly, where that message is coming from. It’s about realizing that you hold information inside yourself, that you have access to, if only you open yourself up to it. It’s about seeing life for what it really is, and understanding yourself, your behaviors, your mind, and your soul.

I feel we could all use a bit more understanding, and awareness from time to time, and it’s exactly what 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness is about.

Now that I’ve finished writing and publishing this book, I’m just about ready to start writing my next book, which will also be non-fiction.

If you have already purchased this book, thank you so much!

If you bought 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness through Amazon, I would greatly appreciate your honest feedback in the form of a rating and review.

Also, comments here on the blog are always open for all readers to share their thoughts. (Unless, of course, I’ve done something wrong within the setup.)

What Self Publishing is Like for the Inexperienced New Author

This whole process has been a lot more difficult than I originally thought it would be. After reading all about others who have self published as new authors, it seemed as though it would be a fairly easy process, that wouldn’t take too much time at all. This is something that could very well be true, and I’m hoping proves to be, with my next book.

There were quite a few issues and certain things I could have avoided, if I didn’t act so impulsively. Like, the many proof versions I ordered prematurely. However, these did help in seeing where some changes were necessary within formatting, and so forth.

Kindle eBook version is what drove me the craziest, in this whole process. I still haven’t been able to get the formatting just right. I don’t believe I ever will, at this point. I’ve taken a good look into Kindle e-book’s I have, and they all seem to have the problem that I too, face.

Often, I would wake in the morning and run to my computer, ready to upload yet another change made to the manuscript, or cover.

What I haven’t gotten into yet, regarding (self) publishing as a new author, is the emotion of it all. The emotion is all over the place; constantly bouncing high to low – you’re in, you’re out. I was in, but there were definitely certain moments I wanted to pull it all apart, and say ya know what, I’m not going to do this. It’s too frightening. But, I also had those fleeting instances of complete euphoria that put everything back into perspective, and helped me to proceed onward.

Self-doubt and inner conflict is something I’d written about in 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness. It’s something we all tend to experience from time to time, I believe. Reaching a Higher Consciousness, and having a higher sense of awareness, doesn’t necessarily take conflict away – whether internal or external. We do, however, learn to make peace with it. We learn how to understand it more clearly and either, accept it, or work to change it.

With that being said, time for some exciting news!

I was planning on writing this part of the Blog post on Monday, but as it turns out, 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness is available as both, Kindle and Paperback on Amazon, now!

Click here to see a preview and/or purchase, in either format. Also, available through Kindle Unlimited: https://read.amazon.com/kp/embed?asin=B08H1MGG8S&preview=newtab&linkCode=kpe&ref_=cm_sw_r_kb_dp_LupxFbQF13XP7

I’ve been in communication with a narrator, and will be working with her soon for the Audiobook. I plan on it being available sometime within the next couple of months, if not sooner.

Please don’t hesitate to leave a review on Amazon for 636: A Path to Higher Consciousness, after finishing your copy. Your feedback is greatly appreciated and is a huge help to me as a writer. It’s also a help to others, in finding the right book for their needs.  

I’m planning on doing a Q&A blog post in the not-too-distant future, in case any readers have questions for me as a writer, or about the book. Stay tuned for that, and be sure to check back for updates in the meantime!

Thank you all for your support. It truly means the world to me!

Almost there!

All Things Book Related

For a new author, writing a book and self-publishing it from start to finish can be a very long and difficult process. I have finally completed the cover to satisfaction after the hundredth time. Okay, maybe I’m exaggerating, but probably not by much. I should have taken a screen shot of my desktop and all the .png’s, .jpg’s and .pdf’s I saved, then deleted after realizing I’d have to use a cover creator from KDP (Amazon) anyway. Even after using the creator, I noticed the image was stretched out, and worked on that for another few hours yesterday.

Aside from the cover, the formatting was the most difficult, especially when having to format for both Kindle and paperback, individually. It seems once you upload it after reviewing it again, and again, making all necessary changes, it still doesn’t seem to upload in the chosen format. Well, this seems to only be so for Kindle E-Book, not paperback.

Without getting into all the technicalities and boring you, I’ll just say I’m not crazy about using Kindle Create for the document upload, and would much rather use my own .doc or .docx – which for paperback, works like a charm. However, Kindle Create is the way I’ve gone, because using the Word document is actually more difficult for Kindle E-book version.

There are still one or two quirks I’d like to work out but, both paperback and Kindle versions are almost ready. At this point, I’m planning on both versions being available for purchase by mid to late next week. (I’ll provide a link when available.) The quirks I’d like to work out are in Kindle version. Although it’s extremely imperative that both versions are absolutely perfect to how I want them to look, I might have to accept that I don’t have absolute control over everything when it comes to the complete layout and format, with Kindle.

Next, I will be working on setting up the Audio Book version. 

All Things Related to This Blog and Site

The fact that I tend to work backwards, hasn’t helped matters at all. I researched, and researched the correct way to go about every step in the publishing process, making sure to set up a blog to help support the book. I also went about that process backwards it seems. So, anyone following this blog will receive a notice of an update of the privacy policy sometime after October 15, 2020, as I will be transferring the hosting of verajskye.com.

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Life is trekking through muddy waters, before setting sight on the beautiful sun glistened ocean. — Vera J. Skye

What you see in the image may not be an ocean, but you get the idea. I took that photo while vacationing in Pennsylvania with my family, a few summers ago.

With this being my first blog post, I’d like to first take a moment to thank you for stopping by. I hope you enjoy your stay while here, and subscribe for updates on future blog posts and announcements.

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636: A Path to Higher Consciousness is in its final stages of editing before being published. I will be publishing on Amazon for Kindle and Paperback. I am also looking into translating it into many languages, and creating an audio book version.

Once I’ve published this current book, I will be working on my next, which will also be in the genre of self-help. I plan to also get back to a memoir that has been in the works for years.

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